Sunday, December 28, 2008

Are you ever waiting?

For the other "shoe" to drop?

I can't tell you how many times a week I have this exact thought in my head. Tonight I thought it again.

How is it possible I could be SO blessed? So lucky? So fortunate?

I have a home I love. Friends that are always there when I need them and a family that loves me and puts up with me no matter what. Most of all: a beautiful, sweet stepdaughter, my incredibly patient and loving husband and my out-of-this-world, I-could-not-love-him-any-more-I-swear, son.

I wonder, what did I do to deserve this? I try to live a good, honest life. I try to be a good friend. I try SO hard to be a good Mom and a good wife. I think I succeed for the most part. But is that enough to deserve this life? I hope so. I pray so.

I have paid some dues. Years 16 through about 22 weren't very fun, to say the least. I was tested and I feel I came through stronger. Maybe I have earned some of this joy that is my life, but my happiness SO exceeds any pain I've ever felt. Can my dues that have been paid be nearly enough to make this all mine for good?

Sorry to get all deep on you. Maybe it's the season, maybe it's the coming new year. Maybe it's that I got to go on a date with my husband tonight. Any time with him is treasured. I am thinking DEEP lately, and just had to get it out. :)

Thanks for listening and I hope you enjoy your blessed home and life this evening too.

30 comments:

  1. I get what you're saying! Life gets hard but then we are reminded of how truly blessed we are! Have a great week!

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  2. I, too, feel incredibly fortunate almost every day of my life. It is important to remember this bliss and peace when times are not quite so easy. :)

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  3. Sarah, I am very blessed,too! I think we always need to look for the best in everything. If we do go through rough times - the good times make it worth it!! There is always... something to smile about!! Hugs, Terrie

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  4. I know what you mean! I don't think I could have ever imagined being blessed as much as I have. :)

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  5. Yes, you are very blessed! Sometimes I think we all loose sight of how blessed we are, at least I do. I sometimes dwell on what I don't have rather than what I do have. It's good to think deep! I need to do that more often. Happy New Year! Kristen

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  6. I agree, Sarah. I hope I never take for granted all of the many blessings that I have in this life. I really try to focus on what I DO have instead of focusing on the things that this world pushes on us daily {that really don't matter}. The most important things REALLY AREN'T things. I know that's so cliche, but it really is so true.

    Thanks for sharing!

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  7. I too feel the same way! I constantly tell my husband that our life is too good to be true, that God messed up somehow and our life was menat for someone else...

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  8. Well, if you have visited me at "Choose Joy", you know I have been trying to find joy in all things, but this 3rd child of mine, the first teenage girl I have tried to raise......I would like to lower the age of difficulty to begin at 15....nothing is right....nothing is good enough....nothing is cool enough....I am not enough. It hurts deeply that this sweet little thing I have adored since conception is turing into a teenager who doesn't like Mom all that much, and sometimes Mom has touble liking her in return. Pray for us please. I will let you know if and when I make it through this storm. Carol

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  9. I feel that way sometime. Like life is so great that at any moment it could all be taken away. I just try really hard to pray for my family that they will be safe and that God will take care of them and me so that we can continue to have all the special moments that make my life so sweet.

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  10. It's great to take time out and get "deep" sometimes, hehe. I feel the same way you do about being so blessed ;-) I need to learn to show it more too! Thanks for sharing!

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  11. I do it too... I think all women do this to some degree when things are going so well.
    We are just naturally the care givers and worry about everything.

    Have a Happy and Blessed New Year! You deserve it!

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  12. I've come to the conclusion that none of us deserve what we have and that is why we feel blessed!

    My life is so rich and full, if it ended today, I wouldn't have missed a thing. I have my God, my wonderful, hunky, childhood sweetheart for almost 30 years now, 4 beautiful daughters, one great SIL,an amazingly bright and adorable granddaughter, and great friends who love me. I truly lack nothing I need, and very little that I want. That's blessed!!!

    I love your deep thinking, and your thrify decor that never looks thrifty!!

    May your blessings continue to flow throughout the New Year. AND STOP LOOKING FOR THAT DARNED SHOE TO FALL!!! ;)
    BECKY

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  13. i'm also thinking deeply lately... well, worrying. about how i'm blessed to have a job when other people don't, and how i'm so afraid that budget cuts will cost me my job, and wondering how i will pay my bills if that happens. i'm just trying to have faith that god is in control and HE will provide.

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  14. I've had those thoughts when I was driving, reading a book or washing dishes. I think what am I doing to have such a good life while some of my friends are not? What am I doing that is making such a difference or is it just luck? Anyway, I guess we should just be thankfull in what we have and share it with others.

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  15. I too have found myself thinking these same thoughts alot lately. And sometimes I think...when is that shoe gonna fall? We can't let ourselves think that way. We are so richly and truly blessed. There will always be trials and heartache and loss, but we are still SO blessed! And often times it's those same trials and heartache and loss that make us realize how unbelievably blessed we are. I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows my needs and who hears and answers every prayer. I am also grateful for wonderful friends like you who make me think about what's truly important in life.

    Thanks Sarah!
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ~ Amanda

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  16. I think the key is to always be appreciative. When one begins to "expect" things, that is generally when things go (as grandma used to say) "to hell in a handbasket. :)

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  17. Hi,

    Thank you for sharing. I am so happy for you that things have fallen into place and that God has blessed you and your family.

    I do know what you are saying, and I'm not sure there is an answer as far as deserving or why you are doing well and others are not. But, it is your time at the counter (your turn, your time)so please enjoy it and don't worry about how long it will last.

    Also remember, to those that much has been given, much is expected. But I can tell that you give a lot already!

    Give thanks!

    Kathy oregongiftsofcomfortandjoy.
    blogspot.com

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  18. I agree also! Not deep at all...this day and time we need to be so thankful because so many are having hard times now...even the ones with a lot!

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  19. Nicely put. Things have actually been really tough for us lately, but I can't help but to think of all the things that make me feel so incredibly blessed. It's hard to get depressed about anything when you can't help but think of all the wonderful things in life.

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  20. I am ALWAYS waiting for that other shoe. And the anvil. And the swarm of locusts...

    I am a worrier by nature, something I know I need to work on.

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  21. I don't know what the answer is either. It sounds like you have made good choices about what really matters in life. And the treasure you have sought and been blessed with is what makes you content. And it is in line with what God says is so important. We don't deserve it. It could be taken away like Job. But it can be restored as well. So stop worrying. Just thank God. And if the shoe drops, you will come out of it an even better person. More refined by Him.

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  22. in this season of giving i think it is wonderful that you have taken the time to look deep inside yourself for these thoughts. we should not take things in our lives lightly. i am looking forward to some changes i am planning to make this new year - plans to better myself and slow down and enjoy the good times. many blessings to you.
    ~nicole

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  23. I know how you feel and I feel the same way. I am so blessed by such an incredible family and the many Blessings from God. I just feel that I don't deserve it and I haven't been that good.

    Girl, enjoy those blessings!

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  24. It is always great to be thankful and realize how fortunate we are!!

    I hope you have a great New Year! It sounds like you will!

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  25. What a beautiful post! I too feel very blessed. Thank you for making me think about how blessed I really am!

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  26. I think sometimes God will let us see His blessings in our lives just to remind us, "Yes I am here, I love you and it is MY joy to bless you". How cool that He did that for you!!! I love it when I am reminded of my blessings and not just my trials. :-)

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  27. Good for you...counting your blessings! I need to do this more. :-)

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  28. I know exactly what you're talking about. With all the doom and gloom around me, I'm feeling guilty for the blessings God has given us lately. This is the best place our family has been in for years and like you, I feel like I'm waiting...for something bad to happen.

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  29. When I have days where I'm moaning and groaning over stupid little things, I try to take a break and look at just how lucky I am and those little annoyances seem to disappear!

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  30. Loved reading each of the posts lived in your review. I am looking forward to checking the rest of your blog.

    Renee

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